Who I Want To Become
Who Do You Want To Become?
I was prompted to practice a quick but powerful exercise this week.
Speak Out Loud or Write Down:
Who you want to become
Who you don't want to become
The 3-5 things you can do today
without a direction to work toward,
recognizing self-imposed limitations needing override,
and tasks that propel you towards the goals,
rightfully avoiding feeling foggy apathetic malaise paralysis(transience)
Who I want to Become
I want to become an endless nurturer of playfully inquisitive curiosity in my wife and my daughter. I want to create game like education which nurtures and encourages her creativity and courage. I want to optimize decentralized resource allocation via verified signing to contribute to humanities sovereign social human progressing mutually maximal self-development. I want to build advanced fission energy systems as the primary power source for localizing life critical infrastructure, automated farming, desalination, refinement, and manufacturing. I want to generate infrastructure that lasts for millennia, enduring communities that scale alongside humanity.
I aspire to embody a one-person business that aligns myself with wise and tested ideals, helping to faithfully provide services at all scales. I dream of spreading my love of metaphysical transformation exploratory learning by experimentation, innovation through iteration, and amplification through automation.
I visualize myself manifesting the provident integration of physical and digital in an amplifying symbiosis—facilitating these long-lasting foundations of learning, of advanced fission energy, of localized production, voluntarily integrating classical wisdom with present day digitality.
I will learn and grow, forever improving myself, my faith, my connections to my family and my metaphysical walk along the intersection of the Yin & Yang between Order & Chaos, Light & Dark, Good & Evil, Creation & Destruction, Life & Death, Masculine & Feminine.
I aim to be an Entreprenurial innovator maintaining and leaving a meaningful legacy from within my family, my community, America, and life itself.
I seek to become a steward of the resources entrusted to me, a leader in the realm of eternal energy and automation, working for the betterment of humanity and life itself. I expect to build works that multiply the good in our world, expanding the boundaries of human progress, keeping my attention fixed on great purpose. I am called to engineer a business that reflects the talents gifted to me, aligning with my love for innovation, experimentation, and voluntary order.
I strive to integrate my thoughts and actions with the knowledge and wisdom to steadily walk a path of enlightenment. My steps guided by the ideal to bring forth light in the midst of darkness, anchoring my soul to solutions that endure.
I pray that my efforts will relieve suffering and amplify the goodness and faithfulness of all those riotously faithful, so that future generations may be blessed as I have been.
Who I Don’t Want to Become:
I don’t want to become someone bogged down by inefficiency, scattered across too many projects without real progress. I fear becoming someone who procrastinates, never actualizing my vision, losing touch with my dreams, core values—family, faith, and pursuit of meaningful creation.
I don’t want to be indefinitely stuck in under a vague vision or short-term survival, restricted only to progress on an indeterminant path. I want to avoid frazility(made up) from working on tasks that don’t align with properly medium to long-term vision. I don’t want to lose my curious engineering ambition; I would regret not attempting more than if I tried tested and failed to generate long-lasting solutions that matter in people’s everyday lives. Squandering opportunity gifted to capable Engineering plays out as the absence of life better for good people in my life being moral self-abdication.
I reject becoming one who squanders their talents, refuse to allow myself to wither in idle pursuits and scattered thoughts. I will stand against my own wasted energy, practice focus, catching myself distracted, recognizing literally internalized self-limits, of overexpanded sight fogging the resolution of my intentional plans. I will not allow myself to become a servant who buries their talent in the earth of bitterness and resentment. Refusing to exercise God’s gifts in yourself is unjustifiable. I won’t stray away from a righteous path as possible, nor neglect my family, abstain faith, or exclude purpose.
I shall not allow myself to become entangled, rejecting any degrading acts occurring, not toiling in tasks that serve no higher purpose, nor squelching my spiritual fire and vision hedonically.
Things I Can Do:
Tend to the First Step in Building My Company (LLC): I will complete one task on the path to establishing my business. Be it getting a business license, writing a service contract, or preparing my product. With at least one task accomplished today I will rejoice and be glad in it as positive proof I am taking steps in the right direction.
Craft One Work with My Hands (Design a Panel or Schematic): I will complete one element of design for a customer control system. Parts list, electrical schematics, layout, function list, communication integration, or hardware ordering. In completing one of these, I sow seeds of progress in preparation to reap the fruit in its season.
Sow Seeds of Knowledge (Plan a Creator Lesson): I will work to share my gathered wisdom, by writing a video script, recording a video or collecting relevant media. By sharing my knowledge and skills freely, I will shine a light for others to see, giving them opportunity to pursue a parallel productive path.
Reflect Upon the Path I Walk (Review My Routines and Habits): I will meditate on my day’s path and actions, imagine them refined further, and consciously optimize my actions. I will use my morning hours wisely to serve these purposes for which I am called to bring forth. I will rise early, seeking the Lord's grace, and commit myself to the work that He has offered me.
Seek Guidance for My Thorium Project (Refine the Roadmap): I will take up the vision imbued in my heart and upgrade the pathway. Through study, fellowship, or simulation.
Final Affirmation
I will stand steadfast against temptation, I will maintain strength no matter the despair, remembering that Engineering is a calling, and the labor of my hands fulfils great cause.
Now it’ is your turn, Write down:
Who you want to become
Who you don't want to become
The 3-5 things you can do today
If you don’t create your own vision, you will be assigned one
Below is some of Dan Koe’s writing which brought on this painful but effective exercise. His writing activates an increasingly strong feeling within me to better define and pursue my vision.
Where in human physiological experience does my Engineering fit? I’m still figuring it out, and I aim to provide you a free ride as far as I can.
Soon this will be the spark which brought on a real business
One must also visualize in a macro sense, a world of abundance health and human prosperity while rejecting the current religion of nihilism, human suffering, degradation and scarcity, all active agendas of the hidden power elites. We do need to formulate personal goals, and manage the micro environment, but we can’t ignore that all of this must function within a global or macro context which ultimately affect our abilities to create at the local level.